Tired

A circle of thoughts has been going my mind for days now...

Tired of being helpful...
Tired of being considerate...
Tired of being a good guy...

Because I don't seem to see being the good guy helps me..
Because I don't seem to get what I want.. her...

Have been having heartache whenever I see her together with him..
Have been having heartache whenever she ignores my sms...
Have been having heartache just thinking about her..

Keep thinking if he treats her well...
Keep thinking if she's happy...
Keep thinking if she would come back to me...

I know I should have let her go..
I tried.. I failed..

Despite how friends say that being a couple has a share of its problems... I'm really tired of being single

I feel very lonely...

I just want someone to share my thoughts... as stable as people see me... I'm not godlike...

I realized as well I changed..

From someone who dares to speak up and ask... till someone who only message and hope for some reply...

From someone who is not afraid to show love... till someone who just shows he's helpful...

*Motivation to self:

Life's too short to not do something you like...

You're blessed with the ability to choose...

Just do whatever you believed in...

Although some or all would disagree... it's might be just because they don't want you to get hurt...

But if you don't fall... you won't grow...

Believe in yourself...

Believe in what you have... and what you can do...

You're really better than heaps of people...